yeah i lost you, you're gone i hope you're never comin back// i'm trying to put that all behind me cause
i'm done with that// i tried to keep you under wraps, but my family discovered i// was seeing you on the
regular, i felt the need to justify// and on my sleeve is where i always wore my heart// but losing you i
swear to God my world would all be torn apart// they told me you were wrong for me// and that i had to
look within my self- i had to try subconsciously// they always said that your intentions were bad// but
when i felt like i lost everything , you were the best friend that i had// we grew into so much more, you
were my rock- the only one who'd always show support// but when i hit the bottom, well you seemed to
close the door// and anytime you hurt me, well you were showing no remorse// our love was always
covetted... at least for my part, so the thought of losing you was always something that i struggled with//
but looking back now, i know you never brought me happiness// you'd flash your ass and tits at anyone
who wanted some// passionless, our relationship was sick and nothing but disastrous...
used to climb in that hole where ain't no soul could find me
always feeling un-whole, so all i wanna do is try to leave that road behind me
used to climb in that hole where ain't no soul could find me
always feeling un-whole, so all i wanna do is try to leave that road behind me
well here i am now, yeah im speaking candidly// we'd hang for like a week straight, and then how
quickly she'd abandon me// i wanted pleasure instead of the misery, but i bet that you'd disagree//
i was living life for you and only you, but feel like not even once did you really even ever consider me//
deep inside my head, the epitome- of what i'm calling dread // it started shedding my liberty, letting you
literally start affecting me physically//
the toughest thing someone can do is manage to escape the past// breaking glass, face the facts, that
come with having foundation cracks// its finally over- no more trying to make it last//
it's like a million tiny pieces that i'm broken in, no sign of hope within// yeah i'm broke again and i'm
jonesin for your touch, but im scared to really bring that damn emotion in//
but you befriended me, had me down on bended knee, gave me plenty moments of serenity//
but when i started losing sense of self, your love consumed my whole identity// it was again and again
that she'd way too often raise my spirits then she'd break my dreams extensively//
so it confirms what i was worst to fear, i lived with her damn curse for years//
her name was COCAINE yo, it was some motherfucking hurt i had to rise above, i had to perservere...
used to climb in that hole where ain't no soul could find me
always feeling un-whole, so all i wanna do is try to leave that road behind me
used to climb in that hole where ain't no soul could find me
always feeling un-whole, so all i wanna do is try to leave that road behind me
credits
from Redefined,
released February 9, 2019
Produced by Def Chap
